First timer here…Rainey’s Words of R.E.S.T.

This is the post excerpt.


This is my very first time writing a blog, so I wanted to give y’all (yes, I’m from the south) the reason why I felt led to start a blog. All throughout my day today, I simply just couldn’t get it out of my head that I needed to reach more people sharing God’s Word. That yes, I share my thoughts & others’ devotions on social media. I even gave out devotions with our family’s Christmas cards this past December. But I have no doubt that God is telling me that it’s not enough, that I needed to shout louder from the rooftops His name, proclaim His name & glorify Him.

I’m not doing this to be boastful because truthfully I fought through that all day, in so doing many heart checks. Praying to the Lord, “Am I doing this for the right reason, for You, Lord?” Thankfully, he answered, “Yes!” He’s placed it upon my heart to pursue this, to find more ways to share with others His Word, my faith journey as I grow in Him as well my husband’s (if he ever wants to join in), as well as our family’s journey in finding a new church, raising our kids, working from home & many other plans God may have in store for us in this new year. I also want to use this forum as a means for Christian book reviews or recommendations. I want to begin reading more in that genre & post my thoughts on them here. My goal is one a month, but time permitting, more often than that.

In closing, a little background behind the acronym R.E.S.T. After much praying, I decided on, or rather the Lord placed it upon my heart, that R.E.S.T. should stand for Realizing Eternal Saving Truth. So please join me as I share my thoughts & most prayerfully, write with God flowing from my fingertips!


Waiting Well…

While I was thinking about what to write today, I was floored with what the Holy Spirit showed me…

I felt weak. I felt broken. I felt convicted. And I most certainly welcome these things. I want to feel these ways because then the uplifting comes from Jesus alone. I can’t nor want to feel strong, whole or favorable without Him.

Let me back up a little. I’m venturing out on a new job “limb.” Going through the hiring process for a new job. One that is ideal for our family at this time. I would be working from home still getting to do what I love & be with my family at the same time.

Last night I had my first interview. While it wasn’t perfect with mistakes & insufficiencies present, I can only hope that they weren’t enough to deter them from hiring me. Now, I play the waiting game for the next step…

Now, I turn to the Holy Spirit within me Helping me to wait well, Jesus being my example in how to do this. While I’m learning to wait well & being dependent upon the Lord, I think about the possible answers that the Lord can give me…

If He tells me “Yes,” then I must not distracted by the all mighty dollar & adhere to & obeying the all mighty God. I must not let the busyness of this new venture prevent me from having my time in the Lord daily. I must look for ways in which to glorify the Lord in this, as I try to in all things.

If He tells me “No,” then I must rest in that & trust that He knew best for me & my family, as He does in all things. That it wasn’t part of His plan for us, either at all or maybe just not right now.

I must accept whichever answer He gives with grace & in such a manner that pleases Him. I’ll thank Him for both a “Yes” & a “No” because I know that He ordained it for His reasons, His plans for His purposes & for our good.

What the Holy Spirit convicted me of this morning…that seemingly knocked me to my knees, figuratively & literally…was this:

How can I wait so patiently for a thing such as my arrival in heaven but not for a thing such as this thing here on earth? How can I wait patiently to meet my Lord & Jesus Christ but fight to wait patiently for something so relatively insignificant as an answer to a possible new job? What means more to me?

What means more to you?

I felt right in the depths of my heart & soul that if I couldn’t wait patiently for this answer then I was choosing to store my treasures up here on earth & not in heaven. That things mattered more to me here on earth than in heaven.

I didn’t like that feeling. I learned from that feeling. I no longer want to feel that way again, meaning that while I welcome the spiritual lesson & the reminder of our utmost dependence upon the Lord, I no longer want the Lord to have to teach me the same lesson again. That I learned this spiritual lesson the first time not to be repeated again. By the Holy Spirit pointing me to that realization, I’ve been able to wait well for the remainder of the day.

Yes, I think about it but it hasn’t consumed my every thought. When I do think about it, I don’t get anxious, nervous, butterflies in my stomach.

Yes, I have prayed for the Lord’s will to be done reminding myself of some verses I’ve learned here recently, as well as some I’ve looked up specifically for my newfound spiritual lesson:

[Jesus] saying, “Father, if you are willing, remove this cup from me. Nevertheless, not my will, but yours, be done.” – Luke 22:42

-But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. – 2 Corinthians 12:9

-The LORD is good to those who wait for him, to the soul who seeks him. – Lamentations 3:25

-Therefore the LORD waits to be gracious to you, and therefore he exalts himself to show mercy to you. For the LORD is a God of justice; blessed are all those who wait for him. – Isaiah 30:18

-Wait for the LORD; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the LORD! – Psalm 27:14

I can confidently say that whatever answer the Lord gives me, I will rejoice in!

Thank you for going on this journey with me. I’m out🤟🏻

Greatest Lesson I’ve Ever Learned…

I can’t expect non-Christians to act like Christians. Period. It’s just not possible.

Ive also learned that just because a person has good morals doesn’t make them a Christian.

The difference in both of these is the Holy Spirit! He indwells in Christians as our Helper.

✝️ But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, he will teach you all things and bring to your remembrance all that I have said to you. – John 14:26

An alcoholic can decide to quit drinking but that doesn’t make them a Christian. A drug addict can become sober & quit using but that doesn’t make them a Christian. And more importantly, just because you make a confession of faith & say you believe doesn’t mean you’re a born-again Christian.

Born-again is a term that’s very significant to the Christian faith. Born-again is a heart change, a very real, a very obvious change in a person. Being born-again is what I believe makes a Christian a Christian. Born-again is what starts the sanctification process in becoming like Christ. Born-again is the laying down of our cross & following Christ DAILY!

✝️ And he said to all, “If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me. – Luke 9:23

-NOT JUST ON CHURCH DAYS. NOT WHEN IT’sS CONVENIENT. Like on days when churches feed everyone or have singings, as we here in the South say. BUT DAILY!

The Holy Spirit entering into our hearts is what makes us born-again! The Holy Spirit is different from our consciences. Everyone has one of those. The Holy Spirit is what makes us holy…over time…through the sanctification process…which is a requirement of the Lord’s. Not a suggestion.

✝️ You shall be holy to me, for I the LORD am holy and have separated you from the peoples, that you should be mine. – Leviticus 20:26

✝️ since it is written, “You shall be holy, for I am holy.” – 1 Peter 1:16

Striving to be holy is what sets us apart from everyone else. The aroma of Christ is a potent one & people will either be drawn to you or repelled by you. This is why I can’t expect non-Christians to act as I do. If I no longer have these expectations, then I will no longer be hurt by others’ actions, both Christians & non-Christians.

I can’t & wont allow myself to be hurt by others’ actions for two reasons:

(1) They are not Christians & therefore will not have the Holy Spirit dwelling inside them. Without It, they won’t make decisions or react to situations according to the Lord. Non-Christians need prayers & grace & mercy just as we do. Before being saved, we acted as they act now. We used to do the very same things that they are now doing, not being in the Lord.

(2) They are Christians who just made a bad decision & ultimately need grace. They need grace as we need grace. It’s not us that they come to for forgiveness nor us who doles out judgment & consequences for sin.

As with both parties, they need love just as we need love. We are responsible for how we treat others & are held accountable for that. We are not held accountable for how they treat us. God is not going to excuse us because we were treated badly. Being treated badly is not a handicap or a reason to treat others badly. On Judgment Day, God is not going to scratch through things in the book based on someone else’s bad treatment.

Jesus is our example & our medium for everything. We are held accountable according to His standards & His example. And the Holy Spirit is what provides the means for us to adhere to those standards & His example.

Everything that I went through as a child leading up to me being born-again, both good & bad, both encouragement & abuse, are what made me WHO I am & WHOSE I am today. I can’t blame others for my past or my circumstances, no matter how hard it is not to do that. I must thank them for both the good treatment & the bad treatment. I must ask for forgiveness for my part in things & i was taught by a wise man that they don’t have to forgive me. As long as God does & I do my part in asking for their forgiveness, Im doing all that God requires of me.

I was also taught that I don’t have to do life with them either. That’s been the hardest thing for me to learn. But it’s true. I can ask for their forgiveness, love them, but not allow them to wreak havoc & be stumbling blocks in my life. Those I continue to allow in my life treating me in such manner are essentially given permission to act accordingly & I risk acting in such a way that is not pleasing to God.

God places it on my heart through the reading of His Word & prayer how I’m supposed to handle situations like that. It can be to test my faith & dependence on Him, to be an example for them, or to help them in ways that God intends me to in order to fulfill His plans for His purposes. I may have to persevere through situations like that for a time in order to fulfill His plan & I must trust Him to bring me through it in His time.

I must always look to Him for that wisdom & guidance in all situations, not just those where I may not be treated well.

Thank You Lord for Your Holy Spirit that guides me in every & all situations. All I have to do is obey. You will provide me with what I need for every situation I encounter Lord. In Jesus’ name, amen.

Disclaimer: I know I may repeat some of the same things as some of my earlier blog posts but I only write what is placed on my heart sharing with others & providing comfort for my own self.

Thank you for those that read my posts & going on this journey with me. I’m out🤟🏻

Lesson in Humility…

As I was doing my Missional Motherhood video chat, I revealed some things to these two special ladies of God’s that I then, later on, revealed to my husband. These things were some life lessons that took me a very long time to learn. I decided to share them here in hopes that they will encourage someone out there.

I have struggled for the past 3 years with this 60+ pounds gained on my small frame, i,e., on my short little self. I struggled with problems with my stomach which played a part in me gaining this weight. It had gotten where I couldn’t look at myself in the mirror, naked, and wondered daily if my husband still found me attractive. On one shameful occasion, I even questioned what I had done so wrong to be punished like this from God. Like I said, I’m not proud of that devil’s thought entering into my mind, and I immediately asked for forgiveness. God does provide me more grace and mercy than I could ever deserve or pay Him back for.

It was a lot to wrap my mind around. I can no longer wear jeans due to my stomach problems. Anything restricting my stomach will cause my stomach to swell so painfully that I can’t bend over. Doctors don’t know why. I have been seeing them off and on for two years now, before and after my most recent pregnancy.

Over the past few weeks, I noticed that the view of my body and how I saw myself was changing. I was no longer repulsed by what I saw in the mirror. I began questioning, “Why?” God placed it upon my heart that it was His doing, done for my good and His glory.

You see, the person I used to be…the one before I was converted, the one before all of the weight gain, was very vain. There wasn’t a mirror or window I wasn’t checking myself out in. I didn’t dress modestly. I even resorted to doing things that are morally wrong just to get attention. I wanted to be known for my curves and what I had, knowing that I didn’t even work out to get out.

This was the lesson God wanted me to learn. This weight gain and even feelings of depression about it were to teach me a lesson in humility. That He wants me to love who I am regardless of how I look in the mirror. I am to love myself on the outside as well as on the inside, in spite of what I think is wrong with me. I am to love the things that I think are wrong with me, because I know God does and that He doesn’t see me as I see myself.

He sees His son. The new Adam. Heir with Him and co-heir with Jesus.

I’m not saying that I have days where I don’t still struggle with it. But I think I have more days now than before where I’m happy with what I see. I see a child of God. I changed the way I ask questions to my husband. Rather than asking if I look okay and fishing for compliments, I ask if my dress or clothing is appropriate. I know that my dress reflects who I am as a child of God. I want to dress appropriately to emanate God and to not be a distraction that takes away from His message.

I’ve found joy in that fact and no longer basing my happiness on how other people see me. I try to own my scars and stretch marks because in obtaining them, I served or am serving the Lord. Even the more permanent scars on my heart were to bring me to Him and to start the sanctification process.

I learned that happiness is based on other people and their opinions. I don’t think it can truly be obtained because it comes from an external source and we all know humans are selfish and prideful and won’t hesitate to make someone else feel bad for their own selfish reasons. I learned that joy is an internal emotion, one found from looking to God and reading His word. It is being content in knowing God’s view of us and His reasons for bringing us into this world.

While I’m not perfect, I strive to maintain my newfound joy rather than looking for happiness. On those days, where I fail so miserably at it, I have to at times and choose to during my better times remind myself to turn to God’s Word for Scripture pertaining this very topic:

Colossians 3:12-[12] Put on then, as God’s chosen ones, holy and beloved, compassionate hearts, kindness, humility, meekness, and patience, (ESV)

Ephesians 4:1–2-[1] I therefore, a prisoner for the Lord, urge you to walk in a manner worthy of the calling to which you have been called, [2] with all humility and gentleness, with patience, bearing with one another in love, (ESV)

James 4:6, 10-[6] But he gives more grace. Therefore it says, “God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble.” (ESV)[10] Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will exalt you. (ESV)


Luke 14:11-[11] For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, and he who humbles himself will be exalted.” (ESV)

Micah 6:8-[8] He has told you, O man, what is good; and what does the LORD require of you but to do justice, and to love kindness, and to walk humbly with your God? (ESV)

While there are many more verses pertaining to this, I’ll just leave with these few and allow God to speak directly from His Word.

Thank you for going on this journey with me. I’m out.

Just How Much Faith Do We Really Have?

This is going to be an extremely personal post. Written for His glory to show that we don’t have to come to Him whole. He wants us to come to Him broken. And the more broken we are, the more we realize our dependence on Him & that’s what He desires in order to bring Him all the glory.

And because of the depth of this post & how personal I’m getting, it may not be completed all at one time.

As I’m sitting here in the wee hours of the morning with my precious baby boy, the rest of my family asleep, I find myself floundering in my struggles. My struggles within. The struggles that I feel like are not worthy enough to hand over to God.

But that’s not what the Bible tells us to do.

As easy as it can be to share verses with others, it’s so much harder applying those same verses to our very own lives. We must ” practice what we preach,” as the saying goes. We can’t tell people to do this when we’re not willing to do that. However hard it may be to follow our own advice & shared scripture, we shouldn’t let that stop us from sharing with others.

And I believe that’s where faith & hope come in. Are those two terms synonymous? I think so. The Bible tells us that you can’t have one without the other. Just as there is a difference between happiness & joy.

One verse in particular keeps jumping out at me & I know that it’s one that God keeps bringing to my attention for His purposes, for His plan.

-So faith comes from hearing, and hearing through the word of Christ. – Romans 10:17

Hearing can come in many forms. Attending church hearing the Word of Christ from a preacher, pastor, etc. Reading the word of Christ through daily immersion in His Word. Surrounding yourself with God’s people who find joy in discussing the Word of Christ with you. Hearing the word of Christ through others’ teachings on the internet, radio, magazines, books, etc (as long as they are of sound doctrine).

For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven: – Ecclesiastes 3:1

–This verse provides me comfort because it tells me that everything in life is but of a season. We have seasons that we go through where we feel the way that I feel-the feeling that due to lack of time in the Word or in prayer, we don’t feel as close to our Father. Take comfort in the fact that like the other 4 seasons we’re most familiar with, seasons in life pass away in time. Take comfort in the fact that if we’re God’s people chosen before the foundation of the world, He will bring us back to Him. We must keep with our discipline of reading, prayer & serving Him in any & all ways, showing godly love to all. Like all struggles we go through, God uses these moments for His good, to show our dependence on Him, & to bring Him glory.

3 Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! According to his great mercy, he has caused us to be born again to a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead,4 to an inheritance that is imperishable, undefiled, and unfading, kept in heaven for you,5 who by God’s power are being guarded through faith for a salvation ready to be revealed in the last time.6 In this you rejoice, though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been grieved by various trials,7 so that the tested genuineness of your faith-more precious than gold that perishes though it is tested by fire-may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ.8 Though you have not seen him, you love him. Though you do not now see him, you believe in him and rejoice with joy that is inexpressible and filled with glory, – 1 Peter 1:3-8

–This passage in 1 Peter is how I’m able to believe that faith & hope are synonymous. We place our faith in Jesus Christ & these verses say He is our living hope. We cannot see either one of these things just as we cannot see Christ. That’s where trust comes in.

Trust stems from the word truth. Truth & trust both elicit feelings of good. Truth denotes anything false. Trust is a good feeling that comes through time with someone. It is something that has to be earned & given freely based upon someone’s actions. It is also the easiest emotion to be broken.

But that’s the thing, why & how can we not have faith, hope & trust in God based upon His truth found in the living Word & all of the evidence He places in our lives daily? God has never broken my trust as man has & yet I have such a hard time relinquishing control to Him. I’m guilty of claiming I’m a servant (& I do my very best to) & yet still believing that I’m in control of my life. That’s nowhere near what the definition of servant is.

We cannot, in any way possible, half-heartedly serve the Lord! We must pass the tests & trials of our faith by continuing to serve Him totally & completely.

Dear Heavenly Father, help me to reconnect to You through my time with You. Help make my time with You be more personal. Convict me of my sins & in Your grace & mercy, forgive me of them. I confess that I’ve been struggling with my number one sin lately & thinking thoughts that I shouldn’t be that have hindered my relationship with You & to be honest my relationship with “B” as well. Bring me back to a place of joy in You where I’m content & at peace within. I feel like I’m struggling Lord & that it’s no one’s fault but my own as I don’t devote myself to You in all things that I do. I don’t devote myself to You in mind, body & soul. Please, I plead to You, help me feel close to You again. I need that! I yearn for that! Thank you for the grace & mercy You have given me thus for & if I find an ounce of favor in Your sight, may You continue to provide more grace & mercy. Be with others who struggle as I struggle, who struggle in far worse ways than I am, Lord. May they turn to You in everything they do & for everything they need for You are the great Provider, the only Provider we ever need. In Jesus’ name, amen.

Thank you for going on this journey with me! I’m out🤟🏻

We Should Be Bible Nerds…Trust me, this kind is ok!

Back when I was in school, nerds just were not cool. They kept their head in a book & in turn, probably knew a lot of random information & didn’t hesitate to share it with anyone at any time. Nerds also usually didn’t care what others thought of them.

I happened to be one of those people. In my books, I could escape from those who just couldn’t stand to be around me.

To this day, nerds are not treated any differently than they were 15 years ago. And to be honest, they’re treated much, much worse.

Good news is this kind of nerd-a bible nerd-is what we need to be to survive in such a cruel, cold world. This particular book is the book we should stay in for so many reasons.

Back then, I couldn’t stand to be called a nerd but now this term “Bible nerd” is a term of endearment to me. One I call myself & what I strive to be during those seasons of life when time just doesn’t permit me to read as much as I should.

In all honesty, we never read as much as we should & as much as God wants us to, but still something to strive for, nonetheless.

Like nerds of my day in school, the Bible tells us that us bible nerds are also people who don’t (can’t) worry about what others think of them. We are a people set apart for His holy priesthood.

Let’s look into a few more reasons of why we should strive to be a bible nerd, shall we?

1. It’s His commandment. God tells us we should stay in His Word & strive to obey it because He is Holy & anything apart from that is sin & sin must be atoned for.

This Book of the Law shall not depart from your mouth, but you shall meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do according to all that is written in it. For then you will make your way prosperous, and then you will have good success. – Joshua 1:8

But he (Jesus) answered, “It is written, “‘Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that comes from the mouth of God.'” – Matthew 4:4

-Until I come, devote yourself to the public reading of Scripture, to exhortation, to teaching. – 1 Timothy 4:13

2. His Word is living. Meaning it applies to us today. There is not one situation in the Bible that doesn’t pertain to us & can be applied to us today. Granted, we don’t always need to read for application.

For the word of God is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing to the division of soul and of spirit, of joints and of marrow, and discerning the thoughts and intentions of the heart. – Hebrews 4:12

3. It is our armor. It is our fortress against every situation in life. It is our manual by which to live. Every sin can be combatted with His Word.

How can a young man keep his way pure? By guarding it according to your word. – Psalm 119:9

-This God-his way is perfect; the word of the LORD proves true; he is a shield for all those who take refuge in him. – Psalm 18:30

-Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand firm. – Ephesians 6:13

4. We can’t teach (make disciples as commanded) what we don’t know!

Do your best to present yourself to God as one approved, a worker who has no need to be ashamed, rightly handling the word of truth. – 2 Timothy 2:15

-Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly, teaching and admonishing one another in all wisdom, singing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, with thankfulness in your hearts to God. – Colossians 3:16

-But as for you, teach what accords with sound doctrine. – Titus 2:1

-He must hold firm to the trustworthy word as taught, so that he may be able to give instruction in sound doctrine and also to rebuke those who contradict it. – Titus 1:9

5. Most importantly, it’s His. Words that come directly from Him. The Bible is how He communicates with us. A relationship requires both parties participating or it is not a relationship at all, or at least not a very good one. Prayer is how we communicate with Him. Through the Bible, He communicates with us & reveals what He needs us to know. The Bible is how He responds to our prayers in His way, according to His plan.

I’ve always found it amazing that God reveals new things no matter how many times I read the same scripture.

16 All Scripture is breathed out by God and profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, and for training in righteousness,17 that the man of God may be complete, equipped for every good work. – 2 Timothy 3:16-17

-In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. – John 1:1

-And we also thank God constantly for this, that when you received the word of God, which you heard from us, you accepted it not as the word of men but as what it really is, the word of God, which is at work in you believers. – 1 Thessalonians 2:13

There are so many other reasons as to why we should stay in God’s Word. As well as there are many more verses pertaining to the ones I’ve already given you. Now while some of these verses may be familiar with some of you, I pray that there’s someone out there that they’re not familiar to & that God will open the eyes of their hearts.

His Word should be The Book we go to first & foremost daily. Not just on Sundays & Wednesdays but reading daily. If we are God’s people, we should want to. We should want to have those conversations with Him. In a relationship that doesn’t allow the other party to speak, eventually the relationship ceases to exist or never really existed in the first place.

Granted, I’m guilty of reading other books other than the Bible & while that’s ok, it’s not ok to spend more time in those words than in His Word. We should always choose to read His Word before any other words out there, including & most importantly, any words on social media.

I used to be one of those people who got on social media before doing anything in the morning & it’s such a hard habit to break. And I’m sure there are many others out there who do, sometimes getting on social media before even speaking a simple “Good morning” to others. It’s still a struggle for me to not hit that app button as soon as I roll out of bed or sometimes before even getting out of bed.

But guess what? God chose to wake us this morning & every morning before, why can’t we choose to listen to Him first?

Now, come, be a Bible nerd with me!

Thank you for going on this journey with me. I’m out🤟🏻

I was sick. Are you?

In doing Bible study with my children tonight, I was reminded of some verses that I’ve read before but now I can’t get it off my mind.

15 And as he reclined at table in his house, many tax collectors and sinners were reclining with Jesus and his disciples, for there were many who followed him.

16 And the scribes of the Pharisees, when they saw that he was eating with sinners and tax collectors, said to his disciples, “Why does he eat with tax collectors and sinners?”

17 And when Jesus heard it, he said to them, “Those who are well have no need of a physician, but those who are sick. I came not to call the righteous, but sinners.” – Mark 2:15-17

I realized just how sick I was without Jesus. I was sick with a deathly illness that I would have suffered from for the rest of my life if my Healer hadn’t come into my heart.

I’m humbled & feel about an inch tall right now. Which is how I should feel at all times. Jesus defeated death & only though Him can our sickness of sin be cured & death be defeated in us.

This time of year, we are always reminded of just how Jesus defeated death but we shouldn’t take the news of His resurrection lightly. Jesus’ empty tomb is His evidence of how He defeated death. Because we are a sinful, untrusting people, God provided a physical act of raising Jesus from the dead. It wasn’t enough for us to just take God’s Word for it. We needed a sign & that sign was the empty tomb 3 days after Jesus’ body had been taken down from the cross & placed there.

Just as the Israelites didn’t believe that God would take care of them after rescuing them from Egyptian slavery, He proved His protection & care through the manna from heaven, taking them the long way to the Promised Land to avoid war, providing water from a rock, showing His power through Moses’ raised staff to defeat the Amelekites. God speaking through Moses telling them He would “come down to deliver them out of the hand of the Egyptians and to bring them up out of that land to a good and broad land, a land flowing with milk and honey, to the place of the Canaanites, the Hittites, the Amorites, the Perizzites, the Hivites, and the Jebusites” (Exodus 3:8) wasn’t enough.

They still doubted. They still complained. Oh, how I see myself in the Israelites. No matter what God does for me in taking care of me, protecting me through His grace & mercy, I still doubt & I still complain. Like the Israelites, at times, nothing is ever good enough.

Even after my sickness has been healed, I still struggle with this but thankfully through God & in Jesus, it’s not as hard now.

Some people think that us Christians are now “holier than thou” because we now have Jesus & act differently. But it’s far from that. Dwelling in Christ doesn’t raise you up. It brings Him up & you down. A Christian is humble. A Christian does not take the credit for anything. A Christian gives credit where it is due; a credit that should’ve been given long before now.

I’ve recently learned the difference between grace & mercy which in doing so, I’m made even more humble & in the realization of just how undeserving I am of either one of those things.

Mercy is God not punishing us as our sins deserve. Grace is God blessing us despite the fact that we do not deserve it. Mercy is deliverance from judgment. Grace is extending kindness to the unworthy.

I’ve touched on the sickness of sin in some of my earlier posts, but I truly believe that people don’t realize that it’s a sickness that we’re born with & that Jesus is truly the only cure for it. Jesus is the only way to eternal life.

We can’t negotiate with God any other way into heaven & we shouldn’t even try. We can’t make promises to God, saying that we will do this or do that if He will do this or do that in return. It doesn’t work like that.

By doing such a thing, we don’t have a low enough view of ourselves & most importantly, a high enough view of Him. We must always remember who He is & who we are not!

I’ll leave you with some lyrics to one of my favorite hymns that make me cry so deep in my heart just thinking about them because I couldn’t be more humbled & thankful of just what Jesus did on the cross. His suffering will never ever compare to mine!

“Power of the Cross”

Oh, to see the dawn

Of the darkest day,

Christ on the road to Calvary.

Tried by sinful men,

Torn and beaten, then

Nailed to a cross of wood.

This, the power of the cross,

Christ became sin for us

Took the blame, bore the wrath

We stand forgiven at the cross.

Oh, to see the pain

Written on Your face,

Bearing the awesome weight of sin.

Every bitter thought,

Every evil deed

Crowning Your bloodstained brow.

Now the daylight flees

Now the ground beneath

Quakes as its Maker bows His head.

Curtain torn in two,

Dead are raised to life,

“Finished!” the victory cry.

Oh, to see my name

Written in the wounds,

For through Your suffering I am free.

Death is crushed to death

Life is mine to live,

Won through Your selfless love.

This, the power of the cross

Son of God, slain for us

What a love! What a cost!

We stand forgiven at the cross.

Dear Heavenly Father, thank You for sending Your Son to cure me of my sickness & bringing me to You. I know He is my mediator, my Way, into all things that I can never obtain on my own or in anyone else or any thing. Remind me every day the brevity of what Jesus did on the cross & rising up, defeating death through His resurrection. I pray that others will remember His act of rescue for many more days after next Sunday. To not just celebrate during this time once a year. You are more worthy than that! In Jesus’ name, amen.

Thank you for going on this journey with me. I’m out🤟🏻

Draw Near To the Throne…

In my morning Missional Motherhood bible study, I’m led to read in the book of Hebrews. These verses really struck me:

14 Since then we have a great high priest who has passed through the heavens, Jesus, the Son of God, let us hold fast our confession.

15 For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but one who in every respect has been tempted as we are, yet without sin.

16 Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need. – Hebrews 4:14-16

My mind first goes to Matthew 4 when Jesus was being tempted in the wilderness by the devil Himself. I think of everything Jesus went through…with great success. His temptations were just as significant as the ones we face today. Hebrews tells us why He underwent those temptations.

I think of some common temptations that we face in the world today, both men & women. As a woman, I’m faced with wanting to tell everyone what to do & how to do it. And inevitably when they don’t listen, I become resentful & want to say, “I told you so.”

Gossiping is another temptation that is so hard to battle in today’s society. We think we’re just relaying information to others thinking we’re not doing any harm sometimes but I’ve learned that it’s not my place & not my business to tell. I feel convicted at times & allow the Lord to lead me to the following verses:

Let no corrupting talk come out of your mouths, but only such as is good for building up, as fits the occasion, that it may give grace to those who hear. – Ephesians 4:29

Why is it so hard to give grace to others that we so desperately want to talk about? What makes us so perfect that we don’t do the same things that they do? I also tell myself that whatever comes out of mouth will hurt the one it’s being said about if they heard my words & they don’t deserve that kind of hurt. I don’t have that right nor should want that right. I never want to be responsible for causing people to feel hurtful emotions. People experience enough without me adding to it!

“You shall not spread a false report. You shall not join hands with a wicked man to be a malicious witness. – Exodus 23:1

How do we even know if something is true or not? Only God knows a person’s heart & their intentions behind their actions.

Do not speak evil against one another, brothers. The one who speaks against a brother or judges his brother, speaks evil against the law and judges the law. But if you judge the law, you are not a doer of the law but a judge. – James 4:11

These are only just a few that the Bible speaks of. If these are not enough to stop me from succumbing to that particular temptation, then I continue to read. I must allow the Lord to replace my evil thoughts or thoughts that want to turn into action with His righteous Word & because we are a hard-headed people, I must continue to read until those moments of weakness pass.

Back to what I was talking about at the beginning of this post, if we allow God’s Word to seep into our hearts, we should be able to allow Jesus’ strength of resisting temptation resonate through us. We shouldn’t hesitate in our battles to resist temptation & I have faith that in time as we conform to the image of Christ, it will become easier.

We must never forget where we came from without Christ & use our stories & most importantly His Story in counseling to others. We shouldn’t judge, we are only there to be the hands & feet of Christ. We must love others by being understanding, empathetic & by pointing them to Christ’s example. NOT OUR EXAMPLES!

Christ is our advocate & as verse 16 says, we must always draw near to the throne of God so that (purpose statement here) we may receive mercy & find grace to help in our time of need.

I hope this post made sense & you were able to follow me on my crazy journey. I write always with the fingertips of God.

Thank you for going on this journey with me. I’m out🤟🏻